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The end of October and November, so far, has been rough. I feel like it’s just been one thing after another, and it kinda has been. But I am grateful and looking for the grace. Grateful for laughter from and with my nanny kids. Grateful for friends who walk the darkness with me and helpContinue reading “Grateful”

Trauma is such a weird thing. There can be physical trauma but there is also emotional trauma. And both have different hard that goes with them. With emotional trauma, you think you’re over something you haven’t thought about in years and then something else not related happens, and wham, it feels just as real againContinue reading “Trauma”

One more month until I HOPEFULLY get a diagnosis that I have been waiting and praying for. But the battle is not over. Like many different diseases, there is no cure for this medical issue, only ways to help manage it. It will be a life long thing I have to deal with. I amContinue reading “One More Month but Also Many More”

The pain of loss is sometimes the same but then other times it hits you like a speeding train and you can’t find your way out of the rubble. You know that life for you or that friend will never be the same as it was before. That person, that family is forever changed, foreverContinue reading “The Pain of Loss”

I should be taking an online course right now but I decided to take a nap and be lazy. I should be cleaning the kitchen and doing laundry but those things can wait a little bit longer. I am giving myself permission to take a break and take it slow today because the past weekContinue reading “Choose You”

It’s hard to need to eat different things than other people. It’s hard to hear that you might have to change your diet again. It’s hard dealing with an invisible and sometimes visible disease. It’s hard to be struggling through it alone. It is hard when you are tired a lot of the time andContinue reading “Sometimes it’s Hard to be Different”

I have never had the energy that I feel like I need to or that others have. I think I used to have the energy but the past few years and even looking back, sometimes in high school, I was and am just always tired with little energy. Lately, I feel like no matter howContinue reading “The Fatigue is Real”

What an awful Monday. This morning was fine but then I had a slight fender bender this afternoon and it just made everything harder the rest of the day. Emotionally I was spend and mentally I was trying to juggle everything still going on for the rest of the day. And because of today andContinue reading “Tired of All the Hard and the Heavy”

I never thought I would be praying for healing for myself. I have always prayed for other people’s healing – grandparent’s cancer and heart surgery, aunt’s surgeries, more grandparent cancer, grandma’s sickness, mom’s nerve problems, and more that I can’t think of. But at the Brandon Lake concert Thursday night, it was my healing thatContinue reading “Healing”

Today the major symptom is brain fog. Could it be head cold or something else? Sure, it could It’s still not fun to deal with. I feel tired and out of it but slept good last night, at least I thought. This morning at the daycare was not great so that probably doesn’t help. KidsContinue reading “Brain Fog”