Fight

My body is constantly fighting against me.

I’m fine for a few weeks, maybe a month tops, and then something happens again. Whether it’s the same issue I had had a few months before, or something from years ago coming back to the surface.

There are very few days and times that I truly feel like myself. I treasure those moments and look back on them but I also wish that was the case more often.

It’s hard feeling so out of control of something you should be able to control. But then I remember nothing really is in my control. The creator of you, me, and the universe is the only one who truly is in control. God is the one who makes all things happen, the good and the bad. He has a plan for all of it. He uses it to bring glory to himself and to make us better people and bring us closer to him.

Right now, I don’t like this and it really sucks, again. Deep breath… but I have a relationship with the One who created everything and He has a plan, even though I don’t like this part of my story.

[embedding a video isn’t working tonight. But if you have a few extra minutes look up the song Fight of My Life by Rend Collective. It’s been running through my head and my playlist lately. It fits wonderfully with the words I wrote above]