Frustrated

Emotions and feelings are running a little high lately, and not in the good way.

Frustrated. Irritated. Annoyed.

These have been circling through my mind and body for a few days.

Annoyed with symptoms that almost never seem to get better or else they are worse.

Frustrated that my body isn’t doing what it should be on multiple levels.

Irritated because even though I know some of what’s wrong with me there are still other mysteries that are making things worse for my body.

Annoyed that my body doesn’t work like many other women.

Frustrated with symptoms that just plain suck and don’t make sense.

Irritated that things are still not great almost a year later. But yes, healing is a journey and never a straight line.

Learning through it all but it’s not easy.

God you are good. But right now, this is harder than some days.

Grateful for a good Christmas and a few weeks off from teaching.