Mental Health

Some days it’s more of a mental health battle than a physical health fight. Or some days it’s both, and that’s almost worse.

Yesterday and today have been one of those mental tug of war days. Where my mind is saying one thing but my heart knows what is really true.

Ladies with PCOS struggle with many different issues, mental health being one of them. Most of us have weight that won’t budge easily. And today was a battle with myself about myself, specifically with how I look.

Warmer weather is amazing but it also brings shorts and swimsuits. I don’t love how I look in my shorts. The pudgy section under my waistline is not flattering and I don’t love it, or like it for that matter.

Even though I didn’t like the shorts or outfit I put on today, I still wore it. I didn’t change and just wore it, even though I would be at church with hundreds of other people. I also am currently laying by the pool in a bikini. I can’t believe I just typed that. I have never worn a bikini until today. Two piece swimsuits and tankinis, yes, but never a bikini that shows my midsection. It shows my surgery scars and my not so pretty stomach.

But, I put on the bikini and wore it!! A small step in mental health with also working on being brave and having courage. Was it an easy thing to do? No way. Will it be a stepping stone in this journey to heal and be myself? Yes, it is!

Keep trying. Keep fighting. And be kind because you never know what invisible battle someone is fighting.