Grief

Sometimes grief hits you like a semi truck and runs you over.

Other times, you might see it coming in the rear view mirror but don’t know when it will hit you. Then it does, and it feels like you are drowning in waves of emotion.

Grief is hard and not something you would wish on anyone. It’s not easy to go through loosing someone you love. It’s even more difficult loosing multiple people you love.

This time of year, right before April and through the beginning of it too, my heart knows what my brain doesn’t want to remember. My heart can feel the loss more easily somehow, even though it’s been almost five years for him and three years in July for her.

It still hurts.

The hole that was once there seems to open up a little and bleed a small trickle of blood around this time of year.

Maybe this year it hurts a little more because there is so much I would tell them all. So many good things happening, that sometimes I still can’t believe it. (Thank you God!) They would be so happy and proud. I just wish I could tell them myself.

I know they are healed and with Jesus. What a day that will be to see you all in glory! But some days, I really wish they could come back to earth for a while and live this life with me… let me tell the stories, answer their questions, feel their hugs and hear the “I love you”s one more time.

Of course, that is not how death works. So until the day we meet again, I will be grateful for the time we had yet sad that you had to go.

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When someone you love becomes a memory, that memory becomes a treasure. ❤️