Not Right

Something is wrong. Something is really wrong.

Not as wrong as last year when I questioned if I was having a heart attack because of gallstone pain but something is still wrong.

It is not okay to be this exhausted. I should not be this exhausted on normal days or when I have my period.

Something is not right.

I think there has to be a thyroid problem on top of the hormone issues. Or maybe it’s one or more other things that’s also wrong.

I do not know or see other people struggling with the fatigue or exhaustion that I face almost every day…

Something is not how it’s supposed to be.

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I have a hormone appointment in four days. It felt like this day would never come and now it’s almost here. I think I am anxious for it and craving answers. I really hope that this new doctor can provide answers and I pray there is a diagnosis too. Maybe I also need to give myself a dose of reality and remember that healing for any of this won’t happen overnight and this is just one more step in my healing journey.

Praying for healing and peace for whatever happens in the appointment next week.

God is good no matter what.