One More Month but Also Many More

One more month until I HOPEFULLY get a diagnosis that I have been waiting and praying for.

But the battle is not over.

Like many different diseases, there is no cure for this medical issue, only ways to help manage it. It will be a life long thing I have to deal with.

I am hopeful that symptoms will lessen but in all reality, that will probably take months with some trial and error too.

I’m hopeful yet some days are so hard to keep dealing with this.

And maybe it’s not just one thing my body is fighting or dealing with that isn’t quite right, maybe it’s more than one problem.

I really don’t know.

I’m craving answers but also slightly nervous about what I’ll be told needs to change or what I need to do differently.

But it’s all in God’s hands, just like it always is.

“I don’t wanna write this song
I don’t want this pain to be my story
I don’t want this desert road
Are you sure this is the plan that You have for me?
Out here in the dust and clay
God, if there’s a bigger picture
It’s gettin’ hard to see today
But I know that You won’t leave me”

Desert Road by Casting Crowns and CAIN